giving up
I have been trying for months..
I have given everything I could,tried everything I can but its not working out. for financial reasons my dream to work in doha is not coming true. the only reason i wanna go there is because my dear friend is there.well my ex boyfriend-turned-friend-turned-boyfriend-turned-ex-boyfriend..
i wanna go to doha to have a new chance with him and of course start a new life, he promised me that he will marry me, promised that things will work out for the better this time.
I am sad because I finally come to a realization that its not gonna work out. I have to give up and move on.
I am posting this here because no one from where I am will understand, a friend of mine who caught me reading forums in QL told me that it would really break my heart if I will not be able to fulfill my dream, I have waited for years,and when it finally happened everyhting now is not working out,.I know I may not make sense for now for some...but I just want to pour it all out..I want to cry,to shout and just move on, but I know I can't because I will be forever haunted by the WHAT IF's in the long run, I know I've done everything I can, but I can't help but think again the what if's.
I may be too old to be idealistic but my life has been full of disappointments already!Im so tired of being disappointed, I know how to value the little things-but when I wanted something really really bad I can't help being helpless-when I can not and ever get it
thanks for the nice words...it is very inspiring!
supernurse- my friends usually supports me and counsel me but at this time i really haven't told anyone yet that im giving up..so nobody really knows the pain that im going through...
"Life is too short to make it shorter"
Have you tried counselling?
Just when you're ready to give up, love finds a way to give you hope
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth
There are some things in life that don't go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunites. Don't give up one something just because you don't think things will work, you won't know unless you give it a try. But don't hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be."
Move on! Remember, its his lost not yours
well you have done your part! Lets see if he will do his!-------------------------------------------------
╬ Jai Guru Deva ╬
Married with u ex-boyfriend. get family visa, then u come to doha here. apply u RP with 2 weeks. hulaa... u here in Qatar with Resident Permit, then find jobs here. for ladies its easy for sure.
thanks abuamerican...
i will have to elave QL soon too..=(
"Life is too short to make it shorter"