thanks to all who give information.. i appreciate it.. and i will keep contact to those soon... i am reading some books about islam but i need somebody who will really explain to me deeper the meaning of the content of the book.

I am aware also that my parents are alarming on the reason im reading those books.(they think I might convert) Some of my friends even reacted on it when they saw the books in my room. But it doesnt bother me nor stop me to read.

I hope I will find the good way....