Oh dear, my heart goes out for you!
Others opinion about you shouldnt be your reality! Let them think what they like to think. Put it this way, they look because you have someone or something that they dont have. Just feel beautiful...think beautiful and look beautiful. To hell with them!!!
Dont lose hope. In time you will find a job that suits you.
Stay happy and well!

"Life is tough, but I'm tougher!"