there's really not much to learn if the subject of your story is "WHY IT's ME?" For me as a reader, you are still discovering the sense of your suffering, and until you have made sense of all that happened to you, all you seek is a pity party.

we all have our share in life's hardships. change your pespective, you are alive, living in a country that has not been in siege, you can eat and sleep. A child in Gaza was shot 12 times in her chest. her other sisters were shot too. their house was burned. your situation is not worse than theirs.