it is not only against the states religion, it is against humanity. I think all of us, from base of our heart, understand that homosexuality or lesbian life is an abnormal way of life. Human is created in a pair, in two genders so they will like and love each other, not with the same genders.
Just a suggestion, it's better you comeback to your normal life, a normal life of human being. I believe your heart is always telling you that it was wrong, listen to it.