you have to help yourself.

You need to get over the emotional side of seeing yourself as fat. That's not good for you.

Just try and get your calorie count up to 2000 per day, honey...even if it takes drinking a canned shake instead of taking a nap. Sip it slowly.

I know how it is...got that way my freshman year in college. Was unintentional...was doing 4 major sports and working. Didn't have enough money for food, so cut down on that...ended up doing basically what you are doing. My mom saw me after 3 months and immediately dragged me to the doctor who said, either eat or I'm putting you in the hospital. I chose to help myself and at first eating made me really sick to my stomach...but it got better after a month.

If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous, he will not bite you; that is the main difference between a dog and man.
-Mark Twain-