koko thank you very much for your soft words. Thank you to the others who gave me advice. I really needed to hear all your comments. I felt so blessed and loved by all these responses that I phoned my husband and talked to him about this issue of doubt. I am glad I called on you all and now feel a heavy burden lifted off me.

I have also looked into some islamic centers here in vancouver and there are a couple. I will be checking them out. And I will check the islamic help line as well.

Thanks a bunch everyone.

Fatima