when you lose something that matters most to you, you hit rock bottom. its not easy giving up something or someone who means the world to you...it isnt easy seeing the person and knowing you can never be. its fucking hard to let go of someone who makes you so happy, makes your life worth living, makes your mornings worth waking up for...its not even the slightest bit easy.
but things like that do happen. and you suddenly take a step back--not because you want to....but because you have to. you love the person too much to not give him what he wants. so you suck it in and take solace in your friends. its a HUMBLING experience. it makes you realize that not everything is permament. people come and go. some stay. some dont. others have a reason for showing up. others dont.
be thankful for small things like that. because sometimes, they turn out to be the biggest surprise in your life---but your greatest blessing.
live. laugh. love--till you can love no more.

life is sweet...