all the things that you all said made me cry all over again. im crying like forever already!but my tears today are happy tears, makes me feel good that somehow, some people cared, even if you guys don't really know me. i don't really want to kill myself, i love my family so much, and it would break their heart more than mine did, if i just go waste myself.
he told me that he love me and i am the person that he plans to marry,sweet words that tastes so bitter this time. he said he was sorry, and that it was in the past, we've known each other for 5 years, he left for doha 3 years ago, we broke up because of long distance communication, we got back together last year, some days after he slept with the girl, so he wasnt really cheating on me, or maybe, thats what i wanted to think. he told me that the girl was trying to squeeze money from him, for child support, so he sends money, and he found out recently that the kid was not his, or maybe thats what he says. i dont know anymore, i asked him why he kept this at me, had i known about this before i left the philippines i wouldnt go. had i known about this before, i had moved on with my own life, because i was just waiting to hear news about him that he got married or had kids, thats the closure that i was waiting for, because i still loved him after 2 years of not hearing from him, i waited, and hoped. and then one day he contacted me, and all the years was like days, of not seeing each other,. i made the impossible possible, i proved to him how much i love him without asking anything in return, and then this. TRUE, i lost myself in the process, i asked him why, why does he have to hurt me so much,he only said he's sorry. . .
maybe im just not good enough for him, maybe if id be beautiful, sexy, and rich he wouldnt leave me. i know how stupid that sounds, but come on, he wouldnt if i am, he practically be droolling all over.
hahaha
anyhow, your words gave me strenght. to take one step at a time.
thank you all so much.
ksarat most esp...
thank you so much for your words..
and id probably join filexpat one of this days...=)
all the things that you all said made me cry all over again. im crying like forever already!but my tears today are happy tears, makes me feel good that somehow, some people cared, even if you guys don't really know me. i don't really want to kill myself, i love my family so much, and it would break their heart more than mine did, if i just go waste myself.
he told me that he love me and i am the person that he plans to marry,sweet words that tastes so bitter this time. he said he was sorry, and that it was in the past, we've known each other for 5 years, he left for doha 3 years ago, we broke up because of long distance communication, we got back together last year, some days after he slept with the girl, so he wasnt really cheating on me, or maybe, thats what i wanted to think. he told me that the girl was trying to squeeze money from him, for child support, so he sends money, and he found out recently that the kid was not his, or maybe thats what he says. i dont know anymore, i asked him why he kept this at me, had i known about this before i left the philippines i wouldnt go. had i known about this before, i had moved on with my own life, because i was just waiting to hear news about him that he got married or had kids, thats the closure that i was waiting for, because i still loved him after 2 years of not hearing from him, i waited, and hoped. and then one day he contacted me, and all the years was like days, of not seeing each other,. i made the impossible possible, i proved to him how much i love him without asking anything in return, and then this. TRUE, i lost myself in the process, i asked him why, why does he have to hurt me so much,he only said he's sorry. . .
maybe im just not good enough for him, maybe if id be beautiful, sexy, and rich he wouldnt leave me. i know how stupid that sounds, but come on, he wouldnt if i am, he practically be droolling all over.
hahaha
anyhow, your words gave me strenght. to take one step at a time.
thank you all so much.
ksarat most esp...
thank you so much for your words..
and id probably join filexpat one of this days...=)