can't go home just yet, still have debts to pay, and my family don't even know that i lost my job, i plan to tell them when i get a new one, i wouldnt want them to worry about me, i have no one here, no family, no friends, so they would totally go crazy if they find out. for the mean time i would collect my self and cheer up, there's a lot of people who's situation is worse than mine. Sayin all this helped me a lot, somehow, when i read your comments over and over, i kinda make the hurt lighter, and i can breathe now without fighting off the tears..= )

TYVM!