They say the truth hurts. I appreciate your honesty. I believe the saying is "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me". I know what you meant though. I am with you. My mind tells me you're completely right. My self-esteem is shot and yet I know i deserve better. My heart is the one that is glutton for punishment because it still loves him. I know what you're saying though. If I try and move on, it will pass. I'm really trying to take Everything, Everyone on here has posted in response into consideration. Thank you all!!!.