I am going to go to counseling myself to help with the low self-esteem issues that being in a relationship like this causes. I am not going to be subjecting my kids to this anymore. Again, if I chose to give him another chance it would be AFTER he got help. Until then, he needs to reap what he sows.

He's always treated my kids well, like his own, and loved them. But, although I love him, I don't want my kids to learn his unhealthy behavior. I don't want to fall into his "trap". I'm trying to be strong, but the "show" is a good one because he makes me feel bad. I don't want him to think that I don't care about him. I care alot.

I just think that as long as he's making an effort to change his ways and try and as long as we both love eachother, that I should not give up on him.

Thanks again for all of you that took the time to read and respond to my post and I appreciate all your comments!! Even the ones I didn't get a chance to comment back on.