I have been through a lot in life that's why I am extra careful...and that is why, as I have mentioned in my post, I am posting my anxieties here so that I will have comments and reminders that shall help me strengthen my conviction during moments of vulnerability. I have stayed single and completely unattached for 35 years while caring for sick loved ones and helping out my siblings and whole family.

Having myself roasted through this forum is my way of processing this fleeting emotion because like I said, I am afraid to enjoy the situation. I have once vowed to myself that I can not afford to be happy unless I have fulfilled my dreams for my family.

I really thank each one of you for your comments. You may not know it, but you are helping me rebuild the fortress that is somehow chipped by the gentleman's tender looks and kindness. :)