I don't hate anyone but some people's actions (or lack thereof).

Visper said "..the thing is that people who very close to you only sees the bad thing u've done and if u make mistake they will all come to your face with all their gospels and make you feel worthless.."

Sorry for your disappointment and fully understand your predicament. That's why self-reliance is important to a very large extent.

I've been criticized many times before as well and preached to by egocentric people, even religious ones. There is such a thing as spiritual pride as well but they don't see it.

At some point or other, people WILL let you down. It's up to you to adapt your perspective and let disappointments ride, like water off a duck's back. It's not heartless to do that, even though it appears to be so to other people - but who cares what other people think anyway? Take care, Visper.