TFS! It an insightful testimony and now I can put into perspective many of the posts you wrote that I found defaming, rude or cynical.
looking back at your past should not leave you bitter if it still does then I pray you find in your heart enough love to forgive what you have disliked/hated of your upbringing by showing gratefulness to your family and fellow people who must have given you lots of good things that you have enjoyed and are enjoying right now....they did what they thought was best with whatever understanding they had of this life , this world and their faith/religion/culture etc...