Thanks for all your comments.. you are right, of course, and I do feel like a bit of a ninny for posting this. I am having a right royal moan. I am sure I will get used to things over here.. it's just coming over here and having all my wake up calls in one go have left me emotionally shattered and irrational. I will pull myself together. Please stop sending comments about going back to AD or going home... I can't. I am here to support my husband and family, I just want to find a way to be happy myself. Asking me to leave is not helping. Sorry if I have offended anyone. I don't mean to do that.And there are many things to be grateful for... many!