your "interests" are really depressive, always see a negative side; If I'm your friend, would've surely advised for taking medical help.

So you do it all to see positive changes, right? But FAIL to take note of any positive change, news?
Launching high-tech communication or defense satellite or indcting aircraft carrier (joins club of five) has NO positive impact in your opinion?? really ??

If your intentions, as you claim, were all saintly, dear, you’d have surely noticed something positive too before being ashamed.